I had a great weekend. I went on a date. It was so much fun and I was so excited. I am in a much better place emotionally than what I was just a few months ago. Making this switch with my job has been a blessing. I am kinder, happier and just all around more adjusted. I don’t feel this need to control every aspect in my life and it has freed me up to be happy. Anyways, I have started thinking about what I want to focus on this year. I think the way to set up goals is to think about how I want to feel in the upcoming months.
I watched this video over eight months ago.
If someone would have asked me if I was living this video, I would have said no. That being said, I had a piece of paper on my wall until August with a few words on it; words that described how I wanted to feel. I wanted to feel free, feminine, powerful and peaceful.
I felt out of control with my living situation so, I bought a house in August. I was disappointed with the level I was valued at work considering my emotional drain every day. I began the process to leave in July that finally came to fruition this December. I did not like how catty my behavior had been. I took the time to mend a relationship this month. I was not thinking I was aiming for those states of emotions above, but looking back, I believe I was.
I still need to get my physical self in order. I struggle with my self control. I just need to focus on making my body be a reflection of the emotions I want to feel every day. So that is my why.