I’ve let myself go. I’ve been focusing on things outside of my control. Focusing on others; their behavior, wishes, goals, actions. My motivations have been outside sources. It is interesting how easily one can be on the right track and then slowly drift to a mess.
I know it isn’t going to go back like magic. My guess is that it will take a year. A year of hard work, working hard on my mind, body and spirit. It is so cliche.
To be honest, I am a little scared. Going through large changes take courage. I just want it to be over. I know that the next few months will be difficult, but I need to do what is best.
Have you ever looked ahead into several big decisions? Has it scared you?